Archive for March, 2010

We Leave for the Grand Tomorrow

March 15, 2010

Tomorrow?  Already?  This trip has been planned from the beginning of the year.  So much detail thought out and planned out before we embark on this great adventure.  I am hesitant but excited.  I feel confident but there is this little voice in the back of my head, “what if?”  What if?  Such a big question to ask oneself.  What if this goes wrong?  What if this happens?  I shove these thoughts out of my mind as if there were gnats – annoying and bothersome.  They keep coming back.  Is this bad?  I don’t know.  I think it is good to be able to have doubts, then to get over them and to learn.  This is good for ones character.  This once in a lifetime experience is going to be great.  I plan to document the trip through photography and journal entries.  It’s going to be a long trip with much effort to get through to the end.  I believe I can do this easily and along the way I can learn things too.  I think that the seclusion from the outside world will help me focus on the things that I want to work on.  I have many feelings about leaving for this trip.  I cannot say which thought I am feeling that is the ruler of them all, because there is no feeling that rules the others.  It is a big pot of feelings brewing together, changing and fusing into one huge lump.  This is how i feel about leaving for the Grand Canyon.